So life's been weird, this grrl I hooked up with a few times while I was all messed up wanted to go out with me. I really didn't want to go out with her because we have nothing to base the realtionship on, I mean, she liked me because I played guitar and have been in a band. Wow, I just fit the profile of 50 percent of kids my age. She doesn't even know me at all. She just thinks that I'm "funny and cool", I don't understand how someone who's hung out with me only a few times could say they want something with me. Hell, I could barely understand why someone who hangs out with me all the time would want something with me. So I had to tell her that I didn't feel the same, and so on... I felt bad. She said it was okay and went off to cry. Great. Now I feel like a jerk for feeling the way I do.
Also, there's this grrl who I kinda like, but is in that same social circle with the other chick who likes me. So now because of her I can't even flirt with the grrl I like! Argh! It makes me so mad that the way she feels ruins how I want to be.